YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just got my hotel confirmation for the trip to Connecticut!!!! I'll be staying at the Hartford Hilton - I KNOW, nice huh? PLUS, I get to take a friend with me!!! All paid trip for both of us - I LOVE MY JOB!!!!! I WANT TO HAVE MY BOSS'S BABY!!!! <---j/k, lol - but I do adore her - she knows how to treat a good employee right - :) Can't WAIT - I can't believe it's STILL over a MONTH - SHIIIIIIIIIIT!!!! I want to go NOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!

Boredom

I don't know if I'd rather be bored or sick - at least when I'm sick I don't WANT to do anything, but when I'm bored - there's nothing to do, lol... so it's hard to decide... I'm feeling physically better today, but I'm bored out of my mind - hopefully I'll finally get paid tomorrow and I'll be able to go out and do something - anything...

Talking to my friend's son is worrying me everyday - but I don't have the heart to tell him to stop calling me. I don't want to stop talking to him - but I know that he's going to get caught - it's only a matter of time... I don't know what to do about it...

Nothing else really going on - debation on getting rid of AOL for good - but I don't know... hmmmmmmmm, just bored, bored, bored.....

What day is this?

I've been sick again - I think this infection is causing me to have other problems, so I'm sure I should go back to the doctor's. However, I can't do it this week - but I will call and make an appointment as soon as I can. I have to go out today and shop for groceries, pay a couple of bills - it's raining cats and dogs and I feel like shit - but I HAVE to go.

I've been talking to my ex-friend's son (see previous post) ... he's putting himself in a REALLY bad place by calling me on the sly - but he needs someone that understands what he's going through - and from what I have heard, his mom just doesn't have time for him... she's also been lying like crazy to him about me - what bothers me the most, is that I don't think SHE thinks she's lying, I think she believes what she's telling him - which is a lot scarier to me... for example, she told him that he learned to walk trying to save this dog from me - seems (according to her) that I beat the dog, and he got up to "save" it. Well, first of all, I didn't even know the dog that she's talking about - and second, I didn't live with them when the kid learned to walk - so there's something definitely wrong here... she's told him other stuff that was all twisted around and everything - but I've told him the truth... see, I don't HAVE to lie to him - she wants him away from me, and I guess she'll do anything, including lie, to keep him away... it's all so fucking bizzare...

On a more pleasant note - I also talked to "C" yesterday... it's nice when someone is genuinely happy to hear from you, lol - and she was happy to hear from me yesterday... we didn't talk long - I think she was at "work" - but the talk we did have was really nice... seems I'm not the only one looking forward to next month - it will be so great to see her... :) though if things go the way I'm hoping, I might see her before that... I have to wait until she's back in L.A. before we can discuss THAT stuff though, lol...

Well, that's it for now... I have to wait for the mailman...

I Know I Just Updated - But...

I HATE THIS WOMAN - it's hard for me to believe she USED to be the best friend I ever had... her son just sent me this email;

"ok where do i start i love you very much i can not talk to you but the only way i can is if you give my mom her money and exact opposite of what she said i have been dragged into this and she has blocked you from e maling me and i dont know my own phone number so i cant tell you and i wish i could talk to you and please dont tell them i e mailed you or theyll kill me i tried to im you but you wernt on line so i couldnt i hope you havent done anything crazy and i will try to find a way out of this and after all this time i havent been truthful about 1 thing i am not straight i am bisexual and am having the damnest time at school because of it so tell Christy i said hi and that i wanted to meet her in person and i wish i could say good bye to you in person and once again i love you and i will miss you and good bye"

MY GOD - this kid is going through SHIT and I can't TALK to him!!!! FUCK!!!!!! What the hell is wrong with people that they would take an innocent 13 year old and torture him like this?? He's done NOTHING wrong!! And yet because his mother is a BITCH and a BULLY - he's been taken away from the ONE person that could understand him!!! FUCKING WHORE I HATE HER!!!!!!!!!

Finished

Okay, I THINK I'm happy with this layout - it was hard doing the tweaks - but the end result is great... though I could be biased, lol. :)

I REALLY hope the check comes in tomorrow - it was sent out yesterday morning, however, it's traveling a little further than normal... so it's possible it won't get here until Tuesday - which would suck big time, because I am seriously getting sick of Top Ramen. Thank god I have enough cigarettes to last me for awhile... lol.

I'm hoping to talk to C tomorrow - we imed for a bit yesterday, but it was mostly about the site. I think she said she'd be heading back to L.A. on the 21st when I talked to her on Friday - but I'm not sure... so I want to double check that - because of the moving thing. There's a lot left to be worked out.

This guy on the forum is driving me BONKERS!! He has to send me a private message EVERY friggin' DAY - and it's always fucking ignorant shit. Not to mention that he asks questions that I am NOT allowed to answer - who the hell does he think he is?? I'm about ready to send him a message saying "Look so and so - you are testing my patience with you. I know you have to realize that my position has drastically changed - and your questions are teetering on information about inside material that I can't discuss with you. If you continue to do this - I will have to start ignoring, or even blocking your messages. BACK OFF!!" Actually, that's too nice. I have to do something though, and soon, or I will explode. And he creeps me out besides - "imagining" Christy dressed as Kim Possible - (a sixteen year old girl in a half top and low rider jeans, or cheerleader outfit) - now that's just gross from a 29 YEAR OLD MAN!! Fucking pedophile. I've already warned Christy about him - I seriously doubt she'll EVER go to Little Rock - and if she does, she'll have tons of security watching out for this freak. Actually, I'm about ready to report him to her management - maybe they can send him a message explaining the shit to him - though he'll probably cry and threaten to kill himself or something - godDAMN he drives me CRAZY!!! UGH!!!

Okay, got that out, lol... obviously I've been holding that for awhile - but now I've released it - and if he ever happens to see it - oh fucking well... this is how I feel. He wouldn't even give two shits about me if it weren't for the position I hold with Christy. Bastard.

Anyway, I'm going to go and read or watch TV or something...