5 Days

I can't believe that Christmas is only five days away!  Four if you don't count today - and three if you don't count Christmas day itself.  It's crazy!  I still have a couple gifts to pick up before-hand, though I'm not too stressed about that because the people they're for won't be around until after the holiday anyway...  I guess I'll just feel better once I have them - I don't know...

Still waiting to be paid for the "Jimmy Kimmel" thing...  hopefully it won't be much longer - I really, REALLY, need that check.  I just spent my last dollar on a cheeseburger, lol.  I have to say, I'm pretty thankful that there's a Jack in the Box so close - and I'm thankful for their value menu, lol.

Not much else going 0n - been kind of sick.  I always know when I get sick - because that's when I REALLY feel the cold!  Otherwise, I'm almost immune to it.  Ask anyone that comes into my bedroom, ha ha.

Gotta go.

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Effing Firefox

I had NO problems with Firefox - for over two years!!  Then in the last twenty-four hours, things changed - BIG time!  Somehow, a virus jumped off of Firefox and into my computer - causing NUMEROUS pop-ups and program shut downs.  Over, and over, and over again.  It was driving me completely batty - so I finally had to DELETE Firefox altogether - and that seems to have taken care of the problem.  Once uninstalled, it gave me the oportunity to send a report/reason why I deleted the program - I took advantage of this, and wrote them a not too nice note.  I was so pissed!  Well, teaches me never to let my guard down...  and I won't ever again.

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It's Early

I haven't slept all night - again...  and I'm not sure why as I had a pretty damn good day yesterday.  I spent a few hours with C - it was so great seeing her!  And we had our first gift exchange - both of us saying there'll be another, though she's heading out of town again, so I'm not sure when it will be.  Time with her is so precious to me because she's such a dear friend - I relish every moment spent with her.

Then I came home and R and I went to that Vegan place again for food.  I ordered the same thing I had the last time, but it didn't TASTE the same!  For some reason, they had put barbeque sauce on it - now who puts barbeque sauce on a gyro??  It was not as good - though I'm sure I'll tolerate it if I don't have anything else to eat, lol.  Next time, I'll make sure to tell them to hold the tomatoes, onions, AND barbeque sauce!!  We also watched a movie - the ending pissed me off.  I was not expecting it - I'm sure that's how they wanted it though.  Arrgghh!

I went to bed not long after, but as I said, I didn't sleep at all - and usually when I've had a decent day, I have no problems falling asleep - usually - obviously not this time.  Which means I'll sleep into the late afternoon, that's if I fall asleep at all.  Guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens.

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Just Another Sunday - Or is It?

So, I have plans - hopefully - with my friend later today.  I can't wait to see her, it's been forever!  And she thought about me too, set me up for another web site job - she's so awesome!

Tomorrow I work, and the cast party is tomorrow night.  I STILL don't know who I'm going with...  though I'm thinking it will turn out to be Donna from the theater.  I have my suspicions about her, but we'll have to wait and see if I'm right.  I KNOW that she's overly interested in me - but, I may be reading too much into it.  Like I said, I'll find out soon - so...

I hate waiting for things - I probably have the worst patience than anyone I know...  it's pretty bad.  Hopefully I won't have to wait much longer.

Words vs Action

Before I go into the subject, let me just say that this post isn't directed to anyone SPECIFICALLY - so please, don't take it personally... I just noticed some things in life lately that I want to express myself about. No ONE person prompted this post.

Words are easy to say and write - so many people out there have the ability to tell someone exactly what they want to hear, whether it's true or not, to keep from getting into an altercation - or just to make themselves look better. The sad thing, is that most of us are so gullible - that even knowing this, we let ourselves be taken in. Again, and again, and again. We let words overwhelm us to the point that we ignore what we see. We ignore what is happening and just live on what we want to hear. Why is that? Why do we believe what we're told by certain people - is it because it's a "specific" person that we hold dear, so we refuse to believe the truth? I don't let people sway me with words like I used to - believe me, I was a total sap when it came to certain people. Letting them TREAT me like shit, and tell me they were doing otherwise. I believed them. But, I don't do that anymore - my struggles in life being on account on what people have said, rather than what they've done... I can't afford to let people do that anymore. I put my faith in people that SHOW me how they feel. The words "I love you" are nice to hear, don't get me wrong - however, I would rather you show it to me - as I show it to others. By being there when they need me - by helping out however I can. Oh, I'm not a saint - and I'm not perfect, far from it... but I do know that actions speak VOLUMES over words. I don't just SAY "I love you" - I like to show it. It's nice. Everyone should do that. See how it changes things.

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P.S. I miss you C - and you too G!! I am working hard to make it to the East Coast before the end of the run. Wish me luck! Love you guys!!

And Out of the Darkness...

I'm a little pissed off right now, but it will pass... here's why;

Me and a friend of mine, well, we had a mutual friend. He seemed like a really nice guy. Very sweet, supportive, and so forth. I got into a little trouble last year, and he stepped in to help me out - which I am very grateful for, and told him so. However, while he was helping me, he proceeded to try and poison me against our mutual friend (I'm not mentioning any names, because those who know about this are the only ones that need to know exactly what's going on). Of course I was upset about his negative feelings towards her, and I told him so - he used words like "irresponsible" and "self-centered" and told me she really didn't care that much about me. I knew this to be FALSE, and told him so - he continued to argue, so I stopped speaking to him.

Fast forward to a YEAR later, and suddenly he's trying to reach out again. His claims about ME are humorous and immature. I have never been anything but TOTALLY HONEST about my feelings towards my friends - if I've had problems with them (her), I go directly to the source of the problem - knowing that's the only way to truly solve it. He, on the other hand, likes to spread stories and lies to make himself out to be the good guy. It's effing ridiculous. He remembers things in a screwed up and twisted manner. However, I KNOW the truth - and it's amusing to me that he's suddenly there again when the person in question is doing well in her career. Where was he for the last year? Why wasn't he trying to "patch things up" then? Why wait all this time? I'll tell you why - because unlike me, he has hidden motives and wants to use them to his best abilities. Get over it and move on asshole. You can't say that kind of shit about people behind their backs and expect it to be okay. It's NOT okay. You talked out of both sides of your mouth and got burned - this is why you don't do that to your "friends"... because one day, you're going to pay for it.

We've moved on, and the only reason I'm upset right now is because, again, he's consciously trying to break up something awesome because he can't have it.

Oh well, like I said, the truth has already been stated - and we're done with it. He has no way to contact ME anymore, and I have no worries about my relationship with her. So, whatever.

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101 in Los Angeles???

Yup - they call it a "heat wave" with "record high temperatures"... huh - record high for So. California, but not record high for me. Living in Vegas for thirty years of my life, temperatures of 110 or higher every summer was normal. I never got used to it - but it was normal. So a couple of days of this is definitely okay with me - well, not OKAY, but not unbearable. It's weird that it's not supposed to be over the high 80s tomorrow - almost a twenty degree difference in a twenty-four hour period. I'm looking forward to that - but even more, I'm looking forward to the rain they're predicting for Saturday (sorry Neshia) - haven't seen rain in awhile, and it will be nice to have the cool breeze that comes along with it.

On a side note, speaking of Neshia - high possibility that I will see her on Sunday, and I'm excited about that. And Neshia, you know I'm here to help you in any way I can - so please don't hesitate to ask.

Back to the weather... so yeah, hot hot hot the last couple of days (but I've dealt with it) - and much cooler temps starting tomorrow. Yay.

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Good Times at the L.A. County Fair

I actually slept until around 1pm today - I figured it was close to 11 hours of sleep - the most sleep I've had in several weeks. And why did I sleep so much? Probably because I spent TWELVE hours at the L.A. County Fair yesterday. I had a lot of fun too - we walked everywhere, in over 30 acres of food, fun and frolicking. We ate tons of stuff, including the regular fair food (cotton candy, funnel cake, etc...), drank gallons of soda and lemonade, saw hundreds of animals, yet I only managed to get on one ride. I went with Alex and her mother, and of course, the kids (Jasmine, Nikolas, Noah, and Saffron) - thank goodness the grandma was there or it would have been crazy! Instead, it was a pleasant day - everyone had a great time. This is why I was so tired - but I feel really good right now. I'm so glad I went.

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I Love A Good Mystery - Novel

I read like crazy, from fantasy, to woman's fiction, to horror - but my all-time favorite genre is mystery. And all kinds of mysteries too - not just your regular Agatha Christie. Like Patricia Cornwell (gotta love Kay Scarpetta), or Tess Gerritsen. Other authors I enjoy include Sue Grafton, Mary Higgens Clark, and James Patterson (his "Women's Murder Club" series). I really like to not know what's going to happen next - to think I have the answer all figured out, then when I get to the end, find out I was SOOOO wrong, lol. These are definitely the best books to curl up with on a lazy afternoon. However, I don't like not knowing what's going to happen next in real life. Some people say "just go with the flow, whatever happens, happens" - but this is not enough for me sometimes. Sometimes I need to know things - sometimes I like to be pre-warned. I don't enjoy being caught off-guard. Is it in my nature to want to be prepared? Or is it just conditioning from a lifetime of having the rug pulled out from under my feet when I least expect it? Who knows? All I know is that I don't like it - but I also know there's not much I can do about it. So I deal with it, however I can - and hope I can get through it okay. What else can I do?

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Internet Explorer SUCKS!!!

I don't know if it's because I have my computer "trained" to run on Firefox for the most part or what, but when I tried to run IE tonight, it was like running when your feet have dried in cement. I swear it aggravated the HELL out of me - and I will remember this night. I REFUSE to use IE unless it's absolutely necessary. It's like IE has gone to shit now that there are so many other browsers to choose from - sucks that it's the "default" that you get when you purchase a new PC. I rarely have a problem with Firefox - if I do, it's because of my computer, not the browser. I HIGHLY recommend Mozilla Firefox for those of you using a PC if you don't already have it. It's so much better - and choosing your own skins for it is kind of cool too, lol. My favorite, of course, is the Halloween one.

Anyway, IE SUCKS - rant over.

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Leonardo - Shia : The Beards Make the Man

Two of the most baby-faced actors I've seen in awhile, have both tried out the bearded look to add maturity to their famous faces. And in my honest opinion, I believe Shia looks a lot better. He actually looks his age without looking like he's TRYING to look older. The beard fits him, it looks good. Leo, on the other hand, still looks like he's a step away from putting on his father's suit to add to his charade. I'm sure there are others out there that will disagree with me, but as this is my blog - it is my opinion that counts here, lol. Anyway, check out the pics below (early and more up to date shots) - to get the jist of what I'm saying here.



So yeah, do you see what I mean?

P.S. Hope you're having a FABULOUS birthday Griff!!! I have great memories of driving out to celebrate with you and C at the SkyBar last year - so glad to know you!!

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MySpace, Facebook, Friendster...

There are SO many places out there to network, to meet new people and make new friends. It's funny though, most of the friends I have on these sites are people that I already know. I'm not really into strangers - I think I may have a bit of a phobia when it comes to that - so I am more comfortable with just talking with people that actually know me, and not people that are adding me to their "space" to build a decent total of friends. Are we really judging people that way? Don't we have enough in life to worry about than whether or not we have 20,30, or 200 strangers reading about us every day? Is this the way the simple man can be famous - without going out of their house?

Funny thing is, there are so many fake people out there, how do you REALLY know who you're talking to? It's such a scary thing to think about... you really just want to take people at their word so it's not so spooky. The alternative being some overweight, middle-aged guy sitting at his computer in the dark - pretending to be a cute 13 year old girl (shudder) - can you imagine? Well, I certainly can - hence, the reason I am so careful as to who I communicate with.


It's funny, I was planning on writing a huge blog about how I'm going to try and put all my thoughts together here, at blogger - instead of all the networking sites I'm a member of... but I just had that thought and I had to get it out... sorry 'bout that.

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